How did I get here?! – Mummascribbles

Today I turned 32. How did that happen? I swear I only fell pregnant the other day and I was 29 then…how am I 32?! Apart from having the most awesome little boy in the world filling my time along with a job, I honestly can’t think how the last few years have simply whizzed by!

Today, I saw photos of my previous colleagues’ new baby. A beautiful little girl. She and I seemed to go through stages at very similar times. We had shitty relationships and break ups at similar times, then we hooked up with our other halves at similar times. She got married and we skipped that bit (for now) and had a baby and now she’s just had her first, by csection just like I did!

I am jealous of all those new feelings she gets to experience. The absolute love and adoration for this tiny little being that has been brought into the world. Those feelings never ever go away but when they are so tiny and helpless it’s something else.

The experience of trying and hopefully managing to breastfeed. There is no closer bond than that, when your baby falls asleep on your boob and you just leave it hanging out for fear of waking them and disturbing them!

All those firsts that happen.

Ok so I’m not jealous of the sleepless nights and zombie like feeling but I know that when you are in the midst of it you just deal with it, battle on, and you look back 2 years later thinking how the hell did I do that?!

So many wonderful things have happened since I was 29 and yet I’m still not sure how it’s all fitted in and I find myself at 32.

So happy birthday to me. Every year is a wonderful birthday with my beautiful young man in it – even when I do spend it at work!!