It's been a little quiet round here – Mummascribbles

You may have noticed that I haven’t been around much. There haven’t been many blog posts – not even regular ‘our weekend happy’ posts.

Nothing has happened. I’m not about to announce anything exciting in regards to why I haven’t been showing up. You know when people have been quiet and suddenly pop up with “I’m pregnant”? Nope, I’m not about to do that.

Quite simply, I haven’t had anything to say!

The last few weeks have all been a bit of a blur really. There was quite a lot of illness. Just coughs and colds – but still now, the boys and I are a bit snotty. And you know that coughs and colds mean disturbed sleep for all.

In amongst these many colds, Oscar really struggled with his sleep. He was not only waking up because he was bunged up, but also because he was having nightmares – and on two consecutive nights, night terrors. I didn’t realise what they were at the time, and it wasn’t until I was sat with him fast asleep on me downstairs after the second occurrence, that I googled it and the NHS website told me that everything that just happened was one of them.

It was really scary to watch and not know how to deal with it. He was sitting on my lap, awake but not awake. He was shouting out and pointing at something that wasn’t there. And then when I asked him if he wanted a cuddle and he said yes, and I went to wrap my arms around him and he shouted at me that he wanted Mummy and not me. That was the scariest bit. He was completely out of it, and I at the time, had no idea what was going on. Thankfully it hasn’t happened since then, but he has become a bit scared of bedtime, because of the lion at the corner of his bed!

Then there was the VA stuff. I had a week where I was pretty busy with that, doing some research for someone who needed a venue search done for an event. I used to be an event manager so it’s nice when I get to do stuff that I once loved doing!

And then of course – the wedding. It is four months away now. It is ticking by so, so quickly. Our invites arrived a week and a half ago and I sat down early last week to envelope them all up and get them sent out. I had originally planned to get them out in January but I just couldn’t find the right ones. Then I found the wonderful Samantha Jayne Creates, and she perfected what I thought wasn’t achievable! They finally started arriving through people’s letterboxes over the weekend and it is exciting watching the RSVP’s come in. I had also spent a lot of time creating a wedding website to go alongside the invites and there were several tweaks that needed to be made before people started receiving them.

And of course there has been the planning. The suits are all sorted now, but there is still a lot to do and the coming weeks are going to be busy with all that!

And on top of all that, parenting has been really bloody tough and I don’t just want to come on here and keep moaning about that aspect of it. I adore my kids. They truly are wonderful. But they flip a switch so quickly that I don’t know where I am with them most of the time. One minute they are playing beautifully together, the next they are screaming at each other. One minute they are both sitting watching TV and the iPad, the next they are whacking each other. Half term was hard work. Really hard work. But I feel a sense of calm again now that we are all back into the routine. Though I still need to work on our mornings and the school run which is a literal run at the moment!

So with all of that up there, I have been utterly exhausted. Mentally and physically tired. At the end of half term, I was very thankful when the other half walked through the door with a bottle of wine. Even though I knew I was too tired to really appreciate it! The mornings have been early, with Oscar regularly waking around 5.30/6am. So by the time the evening comes round, I am just ready to slob. And that is exactly what I have been doing. You could call it a bit of self-care actually. As long as my VA work has been getting done, I have barely bothered to get my laptop out! I have sat my butt on the sofa and thoroughly enjoyed watching all the trashy TV on a Saturday and Sunday night. The other half and I have watched movies. We have spent time discussing the wedding. I am not going to lie, it has been pretty lush.

I still love this blog. I have still been pretty present over on my Facebook and my Instagram. But it has been really nice to take some time out. To not worry about whether I have been posting three times a week. To not be constantly thinking of what I can write next. Whether I have taken the right photos for the post. It has been a refreshing break.

I won’t say I am back. I have a couple of things that I want to write about, along with a little paid job to do, but I know that things are going to be really hectic over the next four months so I can’t make promises that I will have time to be consistent over here. But when I do have something to say, I will try and make sure I find time to say it!